30 Days of Blogging, Day 18

Weaning from breastfeeding. I don’t think I’ve ever been so back and forth on a life decision as I have been with the decision of when and how to wean my daughter from breastfeeding. My blog reflects that with a mix of posts about weaning attempts and posts about how hardcore committed I am to breastfeeding.

Some days I feel like I’m ready to throw in the towel. Like I’m being tapped of my energy and life essence, or I’m touched out, or I just want to be able to have that second big glass of wine after a hard day. I look at my big, healthy toddler and I think, it’s just for me that we’re still nursing. She doesn’t need this anymore.

But then on other days I’m extremely defensive about any suggestion that we stop. I want to fight back against the stigma about toddlers breastfeeding. I shout from the rooftops that the WHO recommends breastfeeding until age 2. I want to remind everyone that breasts were made to feed children. I love how easy it is for me to soothe my cranky toddler, how easy it is for me to get her to sleep (a thousand times a night……), and how reassured I feel when she’s sick and she’s staying super hydrated because she loves nursing so much.

But today I’m flopping to the side of being ready to wean. My nipples have bloody little cuts on them from sharp fingernails and teeth. My wife can no longer sooth her through the night since we gave up night weaning. Last night she was attached to me for hours in the middle of the night and I felt a really uncomfortable surge of anxiety rushing through me. It was like restless leg syndrome in my whole body. I wanted my body back.

So once again, I’m launching a plan to wean. I’m actually considering trying to be completely done by the time she’s 18 months, which is just over one month away. The last nursing sessions to go will be nursing to sleep at nap and bedtime.

Don’t hold me to this timeline, because we all know I’m a flip flopper. But this is my current goal.

5 thoughts on “30 Days of Blogging, Day 18

  1. I just posted my Nightweaning experience. It has been positive overall, but not without some tough moments. I’m hoping to hold on to just 2 feedings per day for awhile, but I don’t know how long it will last.

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    • It was so nice to read about your experience. It’s nice to feel like I’m in this together with someone else 😜 I totally get the desire to hold onto a couple of feedings still, to not end the breastfeeding experience completely. I hope you get to keep those two feedings for a while still 😊

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  2. I stopped night nursing when our daughter was about 15-16 months old. I was the only one that could comfort her in the middle of the night. If my wife tried, Olivia would absolutely lose her mind. It was taking a toll on my wife so I told Olivia boobie is sleeping and you can have milk in the morning. It was a sad few minutes but she understood and went to sleep. I was completely shocked how easy it was. Every now and then, she will ask for milk in the middle of the night. I remind her that she can have milk in the morning, she will get frustrated, but quickly go back to sleep. We did start keeping water next to the bed and she will have that instead. It’s been working. Good luck!!

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    • Glad it worked so well for you! We tried night weaning last month for a week and it worked just as well as you described. But then she got sick, and she also started waking up and staying awake for hours in the middle of the night, and I caved as nursing was the only way to get her back to sleep. I’m a little worried about that “insomnia” happening when we try again, but I’m hopeful it will go as well as it did for you and actually be a done deal.

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